New missionary writes Pdte May....

First letter from an enthusiastic, energetic, happy, surprised, exhausted NEW sister/hermana Missionary....

Hola Presidente May! Aye yi yi. What a week. Just to be clear I´M LOVING IT. But good grief! this is the hardest craziest thing I´ve ever done in my life. And by far the most wonderful. I love Hna ____. It is amazing to recognize how well the Lord knows me and my needs as I look at where I am and who I am with. I am full of a gratitude that words cannot describe. Ha! But I believe conference was the first thing in 4 days where I completely understood what was going on. Other than that, I´m doing a lot of wondering and guessing. I´m pretty clear on who a couple investigators are (because, I was there when we found them, or I have taught them once/twice now and understand), and I know who the Bishop and Ward Mission Leader are, and at least one memeber. Other than that, I have no idea who´s who or if we´re being reunited with someone or if we´re making a new contact until we´re in the process. -sigh- I recognize that I am weak and simple and I feel like nothing more than a toddler, clinging to my mother´s skirt trying desperately to do what pleases her when I think I understand what she wants. It´s hard. It´s fun. It´s tiring. It very much wants to be discouraging. It´s scary. It´s frustrating that even when I do understand what is going on, I cannot yet express what I feel and know in my heart and am forced to stumble around tossing out simple words and not being able to get where I want to go. But I have the Lord, and a loving and patient companion, and I recognize I understand far more than I did when I got here (which was nothing). It will come. I have no doubt. I must simply maintain patience and work really really hard.